Funeral for a Grandpa

The funeral is over,
My grandpa's gone forever.

He died on Tuesday, Hari Raya Haji, 12.33PM. I'm really glad he went on a public holiday. If not I'd probably be in school, and not be able to see him during the last few minutes he was alive. Totally thankful! I'm also happy that Uncle Gary held his wedding in October, and made it possible for us to have a family photograph.
On Wednesday I went to school. Then I was going to pass the letter to Ms Chen about not attending school on Thursday, when Ying Xuan asked me what was it. What the hell, I started crying. Eeek, I seemed so dumb. Actually I was already crying on the way to school in the car. Who knew that I would cry so continuously, I just couldn't stop. Ms Chen asked if I wanted to go home, I wanted to. I was waiting so long for her to ask okay. My parents were on the way to fetch me so I waited in the General Office for say one hour 'cause they were caught in a traffic jam. Then every now and then tears streamed down my face. I was so emotional then, the tissue paper someone from 205 gave me was totally wet. By the way, thanks to whoever gave me to tissue paper. Thanks to Ying Xuan for consoling me as well.
I went home, changed, and went to the funeral. No one came till at night, there was a service about death and stuff, buffet too. Me, Weihui, Weiyi and Christel sat around my grandfather's coffin and talked about all the memories with him. I found out that I didn't really have any. Then me and Weihui cried. Weihui said Jeriel was the most calmed person in the family 'cause his bible knowledge was superb. He knows that Grandpa would go to Heaven, and he was really very calm. Gaudie came, she said my grandfather was a good man. He would give her some money whenever she went back to Phillipines. Gaudie doesn't work for him but he was still as generous. Joel cried, my grandfather doted on him a lot. In my memory, my grandfather always bought Joel things he wanted.
So after that we went up to the house. Flipping through the photo albums, we all cried again. This time round Weiyi cried bitterly for the first time ever since my grandfather died. She finally let it all out. I envy Weihui that she has a photograph with my grandfather carrying her. I was looking desperately for one photograph like that featuring me and him but there wasn't any. I saw how plump and seemingly healthy he was in the past. Really heartbreaking, I just cried, cried, and just cried. My eyes were so painful from all the crying and I had a hard time sleeping.
Woke up this morning, went downstairs and had breakfast. In the afternoon I went with Joel to take a walk? On the way we talked about ambitions and goals. I don't have one. I shall look for it. Then it started raining so Joel had this small plastic bag covering a small portion of his head. He looked so mentally ill.
The bus arrived to send us to the crematorium. Had another service. We placed flowers on the coffin and went to the viewing hall. I thought we would be able to see the coffin burn, but the coffin just went past the hall through a door and it was out of sight. Everyone cried again. It was the last time we'd see him. I didn't cry much 'cause all the tears were let out last night. I should be happy since he has gone to Heaven. Weiyi said that in Heaven, people there have only bodies of light. So if they went to Heaven how would they recognise him?
The funeral officialy ended. I found out so much more about my grandfather only after he died. I never knew he loved eating Haagen Dazs ice-cream, chocolates and all the sweet things. I never knew he was so generous with money. I never knew so many things. I never knew how much I would like to love him. I think I've grown up through this. I learnt to appreciate, and not hesitate to show my love for someone.
School tomorrow, I cannot cry anymore.
Thanks a lot to Penelope and Ying Xuan for telling me all the homework and stuff. I really appreciate that.